I'm tired, feeling like I can't be myself
at times it's like my only fan is myself
listen, but try and understand me as well
curiosity's the devil that I dance with in Hell
now back in my high school days I used to write during lunch time
until I was nice with the punch lines
actively trying to cut ties
kind of a rough life where every single night was a drunk night
I'm very surprised I didn't die in the front lines
thought I was invincible and kind of a tough guy
really I was blinded and young, right?
thought I was equipped for battle and brought a knife to a gun fight
lost in the maze that I built
being chased by the angel of guilt looking to strangle me still
you have a closet full of skeletons, my fucking basement is filled
looking to die, yet afraid that I will
Chorus (Beth Gibbons)
I can't hold this day
Anymore
Understand me
Anymore
Verse 2:
most of my youth was me spending time with my dad and his drugs
now it's me feeling stranded and stuck
tragedy struck, woke up in a bath full of blood
questioning everything, never got an answer to none
now I stand in the front being told I'm as bad as they come
for not believing any magic and stuff
not gonna lie, it felt like an ax to the gut
that's why I'm negative with every single track that I brung
born in Hell, that's why I never brag where I'm from
I keep writing just to throw it in the trash when I'm done
now I'm ready with a mask and a gun
willing to jump inside a get-away car just to crash it and run
damage is done, every single fantasy crushed
and now my life has a hole about the mass of the sun
hoping to influence the path of my son
there are times in life where being blind as a bat is a plus
Chorus (Beth Gibbons)
I can't hold this day
Anymore
Understand me
Anymore
credits
from Shark My Words,
released March 8, 2022
Beat by Spion Liape
Chorus by Beth Gibbons from Portishead
Cover by Edd Bundy
Written, Mixed & Arranged by Fubar